Back?

As y'all have probably guessed, I'm a very sporadic person. I've never been able to stick with one thing for very long, so just love me through the long stretches between my posts.

Let's see. What's been happening...

My BMI is 22.1 which is so embarrassing. Most days I don't even wanna get out of bed.

My "best friend" told me that she knowingly lied to get my rape case dismissed and that I deserved what that girl did to me.

My sister's ex-boyfriend's family told her abusive ex-husband where she lives, and since he's been looking for her since he got out of jail, her life is basically in danger.

I have a new guy in my life and he's wonderful but I don't think he'll stay. I keep telling myself that it's my senior year, I don't want a boyfriend that I'll just have to leave in a few months anyway, but sometimes when we're talking, I imagine what our relationship could be like. This kid has no idea how fucked up I am, but he's so...good, and I don't wanna taint that with my imperfections.

I'm so stressed out and angry inside. I thought I had accepted what happened to me, and the results that came out of it. But hearing my ex-best friend tell me that she knowingly lied to the detective to get my case dismissed was so fucking heart breaking and all the pain from the last few years is washing over me again.

My mother is so fucking livid. She considered her a daughter, and this is a betrayal to both of us.

Last Friday was the one year anniversary of my mom and I's moving out. Time flies. This year has definitely not been easy for either of us, but we got through it.

I'm not sure what else to say...

On the bright side, I've been accepted into three of the five colleges I applied to so far....so that's nice!

I hope y'all are doing good!
<3 Lee