I really don't know how I'm going to make it as a starving, poor, college student. I love nice things too much.
In college news, I am stepping WAY outside of my comfort zone and attending an overnight stay at my future college (where I do not know anyone), complete with a skinny body (fingers crossed), a magnetic personality (HAHA), and hopefully the ability to make it through the day without crying (HAHAHAHAHA). As you can see, I'm soooooo looking forward to this. But in all seriousness, I think it might be good for me, and who knows, I might have the time of my life. And if it does indeed all go south, my best friend is a 15 minute drive away. Blegh.
In high school news, my wonderful, loving, maternal Psych teacher has decided she hates us and has given us FIVE huge assignments due in a month. Not just any month though, oh no, the month before we graduate. I've had Senioritis since I was a Freshman, I can already tell that this will not be going well.
In other news, I am going to actually start making use of my gym membership and attend a cycling and yoga class every night except Friday and Sunday. (I don't get out of school early enough for the Friday classes, and they are closed on Sundays.)
And finally, in relationship news, I have found my soulmate.
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It's kind of hard to care about anything besides him, but you know, I'm trying. Especially after I met his mother, who by the way has 6 kids and is probably 100 pounds soaking wet. Like...how???
Anyway, I hope you girls are well, and I hope you're taking care of yourselves. I'll get caught up on blogs soon!
Love,
Lee
I fell asleep watching the movie, oops! Is it good?
ReplyDeleteI have been addicted to online shopping lately too :P I bought a top that was way too low cut.
Liking nice things isn't a crime though dearie!
Ah, do have fun at your overnight stay! Hope you have the best experience :)
Ugh, man...assignments. Sleepless nights. I just went two weeks in a row sleeping at 5am/not sleeping at all. Senioritis is a good one though ;)
Ah, I'm too lazy to visit the gym when not on holiday.
Your relationship sounds wonderful!
Take care and it's great to hear that you are so happy ^^
Love,
Christie
i half-read the book, half-watched them film. half was distracted and it doesn't help the fact that everyone's in love with it now after Leo DiCap's movie, so that just pisses me off. because i was talking about the old film.
ReplyDeleteeither way, he dies. whatever.
shopping is so addictive. once you let yourself indulge, it is very hard to stop. first few times i had to shop because of the fact that my clothes were too large. once i wore a shirt that was so large it was visibly uncomfortable. it was one of the worst experiences of my life so now i am very weary about baggy clothing. i'd prefer them fitted.
the problem with this is that 1) my weight isn't constantly the same and 2) at that point i had to rewire my whole wardrobe. so you can only imagine, hmm?
but then afterwards, i just felt like i was validated enough to buy a lot of clothing. mostly dresses because i'm the smallest size on tops/shirts/dresses, and even if i did lose more weight, i'd still be the same size on tops!
i hope you're taking care of yourself, my love. you are perfect just the weigh you are (please take my cuteness).
i love it when people say stuff like that! oh! <3
some people are just like this. there's this one girl in my class - i've only ever seen another girl that looks like her. the other girl was 4'11-5'0" and 80-85lbs. she's had a child. some people just normally look like that and they eat normally too. some people stay that way forever, some gain very little weight (i've seen this too - they only get a slightly more rounded stomach but still remain petite) or they go from being very tiny to being very very large in under a year. i've seen this too.
sometimes i feel envious, then i realise that doesn't make any sense. some people are born with blue eyes. am i going to hate them for it because i too want blue eyes? (i don't but see the comparison here?) as long as they don't make fun of you or ever make an off-handed gesture towards your weight, it doesn't really matter now, does it?
-Sam Lupin
comment reply:
ReplyDelete"Hey, happy belated birthday! (I think. I saw it on Christie's blog, but then here it says it was your moms? Maybe I'm just dumb and missing the obvious??)"
no. no. no. my mother is on the 26th of March and i'm a 1st of April girl (Fred and George's birthday.) ironically so, since i'm Percy in my blog and he loathes them with all his might!
(No inches gained?? What?? I'm going to start calling you super girl!) --> i have no idea either. people keep on telling me 'it's muscle'. they obviously haven't seen my body if they think i gained 8lbs of muscle!
("Do you say that to all your students?" You crack me up, my dear.) thank you, thank you.
"I hope you are taking care of yourself and not being too harsh on your body." i'm attempting not to. i feel a bit big today, but it's just today and hey, logic tells me i'm not so i'll listen to it for now.
<3
-Sam Lupin
Ohh finding your soulmate is amazing news. I'm sure he'll help you to get through difficulties. And about this college party or whatever it is, I think it would be nice. At least you can find out if you like your future colleagues.
ReplyDeleteThe Great Gatsby is actually on my reading list (I'm behind on my classics) I'll see when I get around to it, so far anyone I've asked have either LOVED it or have been seriously meh about it xD
ReplyDeleteOh my being a poor college student sucks balls when you love nice things like I do, I pass by shops and cry on the inside. Or "window shop" internet sites and cry inside. Soon. Soon I'll have a job and THEN I can have a wardrobe. sigh.
Your guy sounds so cute with you ^-^ I hope you guys are really happy, I wish you the best :D
And have fun at uni camp/sleepover, it's an experience ^^
Take care Lee <3
Mandy xx
Oh wow, sounds like good news all around, assignments aside. Five in one month? The LAST month?! What's she smoking?
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the overnight college stay. I know it's scary as hell, but I'm sure you'll be okay.
And good luck with your gym membership. I exercised maybe three times total last month, so one of my goals this week is to get back to it too.
Aww, what a cutie. Having someone to say stuff like that to/hear from is definitely a life goal.
Take care <3
xxxx
Hey honey
ReplyDeletehow did the overnight stay go?
Also, would you email me the Kayla Itsines guidelines? I've been trying Shaun T Insanity, but the neighbours complained (too much jumping lol)
my email is
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tahnks!
lots of love
Lucy
another comment reply:
ReplyDelete"Oh Sammy. I am so sorry that this day was so rough for you. But hey, 20 years old is a big milestone, and you've come so far in life already. Parents will be parents, and yeah, they suck sometimes, but also they love you a lot."
*in a whisper* i don't want to be 20. this means i'm halfway past my point to 40 (nah, i'm just kidding).
i'm very flattered that you consider me to have come far into my life. :)
"I'm so jealous of your birth date. What a cool day to have it on, although I guess no one would ever believe that it was your actual birthday."
you have no idea. i had to announce it to people a few days before all the time. otherwise, people don't believe me. last year,i was so horrified that i was being given a prank birthday present there was no way i had opened it until after 10 minutes of "it's not a joke!" encouragement from people.
they gave me a keychain. it was a joke of a gift after all.
"Oh what I wouldn't give to be able to stay the same size for awhile. I have probably about twenty different jeans of all different sizes because if I gain even a pound, I need a bigger size."
i'm too frightened to wear my jeans. i know they fit just as easily as they did 20lbs ago but i'm afraid that the bubble fades when i put them on. though when i am bloated, they definitely wouldn't fit. if i'm just a little bloated. teheh. i'm a sweatpants gal, but man, those many jeans? i used to have lots of jeans but they're mostly because as a result of losing a lot of weight, i had a lot of old pants accumulating. you tend to lose a few pants sizes from...er, 217 pounds.
"My closet is packed full of shirts that I haven't touched in years because I keep thinking that one day I'll be able to wear them again. Instead, I wear the same ten shirts over and over and just hope that my stunning personality (HA) is enough to make people overlook it."
you do have a stunning personality. don't make fun of yourself.
i have about one pair of pants in a US 2 that doesn't fit me. that's it. all of my clothes generally do fit me. they could be a bit of a tight fit, but that's different than not fitting at all. plus, shirts have that thing where the more you wear them, the looser they are. which sucks for me because if a shirt is loose, i look fat.
oh, i wear the same letterman jacket every day. legitimately every single day.
"I've been meaning to see the old movie, but I can only find it online and well...once I start online shopping again it really won't ever stop. I think you should always feel validated to do whatever you want, but I understand how that goes."
don't worry, honey. i'm over that now and i will get what i want. if you want something, do get it.
"I hope you are still taking care of yourself, and I know that I say that a lot, but you spend so much time taking care of everyone on this website that I think sometimes you forget about yourself."
this is very kind of you to say. i think i do this a lot of the time. i'm trying very slowly to take care of myself but i am not sure how to. today, i have done just that or tried to. i'm slowly getting there every single day. i'm trying to take the smallest steps possible towards that goal.
-Sam Lupin
Shallow doesn't always have to be a bad thing, I love finding beauty in material items.
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